Have you ever met someone and from the moment you meet them a spark goes off in you and you know that somehow that person will change your life forever?  I felt like that when I first met him.  I didn’t know what it was.  It was an overwhelming feeling.  Almost too overwhelming.  From the moment we exchanged numbers and started chatting we were technologically inseperable.  Yeah he was miles away from me and I from him, but just his words of encouragement, him listening to the insides and outs of all my day….my entire being….made me feel special.  It’s odd how much you will open up for a stranger.  I guess he made me feel safe, like I could say/do anything without being judged or misconstrued.  For once, he made me feel as if I was the highlight of someone’s day.  It lasted way longer than it should have, and I admit…I tried to hold back my lil heart from getting hurt…but I couldn’t…sometimes your heart just doesn’t want to listen to your head.  The distance didn’t matter to me, I guess I watch too many movies and just believed/hoped that this was different.  There’s an old spanish saying that went thru my head plenty of times “Amores lejos son amores piendejos”….distant lovers are dumb lovers. I just didn’t want to listen…..When I saw him it was just as I imagined….the chemistry was all there as well.  The more I saw him the more I grew closer.

Well….time went by and the distance between us became more than just miles.  I soon started feeling like I wasn’t the “special” one in his life.  It’s hard when you wear you heart on your sleeve and love unconditionally with no hold backs, but it isn’t anything I regret.  I don’t regret how he made me feel and how for that moment in my life I was happy.  There comes a time when a relationship starts to fade and you know that the only thing you can do is to let go of whatever little shreds that you may be holding on to.  It’s hard…it’s hard to not be able to be in that person’s life , especially after you knew so much about each other.  It’s hard to let go when you had expecations of “what could have been” or “only if”.  In the end….you must let go to move forward.  The only hope you can hold on to is “if it was meant to be it would be” or “everything happens for a reason” or whatever cliches sound right or fit the puzzle. 

So…you learn to take it day by day.  You learn to open your heart in hopes that someone else will make you feel special like he once did.